On 2nd July 2013 I introduced myself to the blogging world. Little did I know that I would still be sat here nearly 5 years later. The title to this post may have you wondering what I am going to write. To blog or not to blog? That is the question on my mind.
Over the last few weeks the amount of times that I have sat and written has reduced dramatically. This is due to a number of factors the main one being my return to the world of the employed. I love being back at work, socialising with adults and have human contact. Staying at home with the laptop can be extremely isolating. But on the other hand the blogging community is one of the strongest, most loyal online communities that there is. I have some wonderful friends that I would not have if it were not for blogging. But, for my mental health and stability, I need to have actual people around me, not virtual people. Since I returned to work I have noticed an improvement in my mental health. Having a routine in my life and the feeling of need has brought the 'old' me back. I thrive at work and even want more hours (yes I am that crazy!).
I have also found that juggling everything together is even harder than I expected. I was putting too much pressure on myself. I wanted to work full time, be the ideal housewife, the perfect mum and blogger all in one. But as we all know there are only so many hours in the day.
I need to sleep, I cannot do everything.
So, something has to give!
That something was going to be my blog.
But I do not think I can let it go. I have sat back today and looked at some of my first posts. Many of those posts contain so many feelings. One that stood out was a post that I wrote about my grandad and the circle of life. After reading this post in particular I realised that I do not want to let everything that I have worked for go.
So, how will I make it all work?
I have decided to stop hosting the Meal Planning Monday blog hop. I will continue to meal plan but I will not put pressure on myself to post it every single week. Hosting a linky adds a lot of extra pressure that I really do not need. I want to blog because I want to, not because I feel that I have to. I want to blog and write because I love it, which I really do. Writing is a passion that I want to feel again. We all put pressure on ourselves and pressure has made me lose the reason why I started writing. I also host, with a lot of help from my lovely co-hosts, the CookBlogShare linky which I am going to continue hosting but only during the school holidays. While I am at work, hosting a linky that is growing as much as the CookBlogShare linky is, is too much pressure. So to keep the linky going I am going to be having some guest hosts when it is my turn to host during term time but will enjoy hosting when I have got the time at home.
Having a break from both my blog and social media has given me time to put it all into perspective and I am looking forward to the next chapter of my blog. A more relaxed chapter, a chapter where I write because I want to and not because I feel I have to. I have even started writing recipes again!
I look forward to taking you along on my journey of being a sane working, blogging mum/wife and I hope to share plenty of my kitchen tips and perfect midweek meal recipes.
Enjoy and thank you for reading x