That word, if it is actually a word, which I don't think it is, but I like it is...
This is the only way that I can accurately describe how I am feeling.
Tomorrow I am attending my first blogging event. I am going to the BlogCamp event that is being run by Tots100 and Foodies100.
This is going to be a big day for me. This will be my first full day out, on my own, without any of my family since having the twins. Whenever I have been out since having the twins 26 months ago I have either had the children with me or my hubby.
Before I had the twins I worked full time and was a confident person. I regularly travelled to different centres and to different conferences and felt confident in my environment and in myself.
Since having the twins and becoming a stay at home mum my confidence has dropped. I may come across as confident on my blog, but in person I am quite different. I have always found it easier to articulate how I am feeling through writing. When you go from having a career and being with people all day to being at home all day, you re going to change. Please do not get me wrong, I would never change how my life is. Now that I am a stay at home mum and housewife I am the happiest and most contented that I have ever been. But my confidence has been knocked.
I am excited because I am going to meet in person a lot of people that I feel like 'sI already know thanks to their blogs. Excited to discover what I can learn. Excited about taking the big step and doing something for me.
But then I am nervous because it is a big step for me to be me, not mummy and not wife, tomorrow I will be Kirsty. Nervous because I am meeting new people and I worry that I won't know what to say. People that are close to me will be surprised at this because I love to talk, but when I'm nervous I babble and get tongue tied!
I am feeling an "excitednervousness" but it is a good feeling and despite the nerves, I am REALLY looking forward to tomorrow!
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