Being a stay at home mum with 26 month old twins is not easy.
People have a preconceived conception that stay at home mums have it easy. That we sit around drinking coffee, watching day time tv and the children are always smiling and happy.
That is not the way it is. I never see daytime tv. It is always Mickey Mouse, Sheriff Callie, Peppa Pig or Thomas. I enjoy a coffee when the twins have their nap, that is my treat! It is not all smiles and laughs!
Having one toddler who is finding their way can be hard, with twins it can be exhausting.
One winds the other up, then the screaming begins.
One doesn't listen and the other finds it hilarious so the not listening carries on because they find it funny.
One goes in one direction, the other the opposite way.
They are competing to see who is the more dominant twin and don't I know it!
Isabella is certainly the more vocal twin, which makes life easier as she can tell me what she wants or what is wrong. Taylor, on the other hand, is getting frustrated as he knows what he wants but cannot tell me as well as Isabella can. When he gets frustrated he will scream and shout and stamp his feet. When he gets like this is can go on for what seems like an eternity. This is what is wearing me out at the moment. He is extremely clingy with me so he won't go to his daddy when he is like this it is me that has it, without a break.
The majority of the time, I carry on, but today I had a melt down.
Today I broke and the tears came.
Being a stay at home mum is hard because you do not get a break. You are "working" 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.
Please do not get me wrong I would not change our lives, ok I'd like a little less screaming, but I am so thankful that I am able to be a stay at home mum.
I get to enjoy seeing their "firsts" in life, I get to bring our children up.
But it is hard raising twins when times are challenging. However I do think that it is easier in some respects as they have each other to play with which gives me time to do jobs.
But I am exhausted and am so in need of a break. Part of me feels bad that I feel like this. I am sat here looking at my two beautiful children, playing together, talking and laughing and I think how can they drive me to tears. I love them so very much but at times they do drive me crackers and I keep reminding myself that their tantrums are just them discovering their emotions and how to handle them.
The terrible/terrific twos have arrived. I prefer to call the the terrible/terrific twos as there are so many terrific times! For every "terrible" moment like I've had this morning there are hundreds of "terrific" happy times, full of smiles and laughs. It is the terrific times that I cling onto!
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