Monday, 30 September 2013
Saturday, 28 September 2013
In the past I have battled numerous times with bouts of anorexia and bulemia. Whenever things haven't been good the first thing I did was not eat. However since meeting my hubby that has become a thing of the past.
The anorexia and bulemia that is.
I am still very self conscious of how I look.
Even more so since having the twins.
After I had Joseph I lost my pregnancy weight quickly but then again I only carried one baby, of course it wasn't going to be as quick or easy after a twin pregnancy.
I was huge!
During my pregnancy I managed to get to 30 weeks before the stretch marks appeared. Surprisingly these haven't been my problem. They have all faded and are just silvery marks on my belly. The problem which I have had is the excess skin that I have been left with due to the size of my bump!
Since the twins were a few weeks old I have been adamant that I will have a tummy tuck. I swore blind that I would never accept it. I even managed to get hubby to support me if I decided to go ahead with it against his better judgement.
19 months on, I am in a lot of my pre-pregancy clothes and am back down to a size 14. For the first time since the twins were born I feel happy with the way I look.
My hubby is always telling me that he loves me just the way I am and that my "twin skin" is there because I carried two babies who were a healthy weight. It shows that I carried our beautiful children.
I now feel that I am starting to accept my post twin pregnancy body, twin skin and all.
It has taken me along time to get here but I now feel confident in how I look.
This is something that I never thought was possible unless I underwent cosmetic surgery.
I am so pleased that I decided to wait as acceptance and confidence has returned and I feel proud that I am able to say this!
Friday, 27 September 2013
My attempts to beat the bug were all in vain. I have caught it and feel really rubbish!
Last night once the kids were in bed all I wanted to do was curl up in a ball. I had a hot shower, got my snugly pyjamas on and did just that.
I am now trying to just feel ok. I have stocked up on cold and flu tablets, hot lemon drinks, fresh orange juice and tissues.
The twins are asleep and instead of rushing around doing jobs I am just going to sit with the tv on and blog!
That should cheer me up a bit.
Moan over now for my Great Bloggers Bake Off post :-)
Wednesday, 25 September 2013
This got me thinking about what I am thankful for:
- my children
- my hubby
- my parents
- my mother in law
- our home
- other family members, the list could go on!
- I am thankful that I can be grateful for so much.
Tuesday, 24 September 2013
I am constantly amazed by the amount of washing 5 people can make, particularly the amount that the kids make. In our house washing,drying and ironing is a full time job. So when I got the opportunity to sign up for Ariel 3in1 pods I jumped at the chance as I knew our washing would certainly put them to the test!
The pods are so easy to use. You simply place one in with your washing. There is no measuring and no spilling! I try to to the majority of our washing at 30 degrees to save energy so I delighted to see that Ariel 3in1 pods could be used at low temperatures.
Once the washing was dried I noticed that the fragrance was still noticeable on the clothes whereas normally I find that after the clothes have been outside the fragrance does tend to go. However with Ariel 3in1 the fragrance really goes grip onto the clothes. Even after the clothes have been in a drawer for a couple of days the scent is still there!
The next challenge I had for Ariel 3in1 was towels! I wanted to see how Ariel 3in1 would do without adding fabric softener. I was amazed to feel how soft the towels came out with just Ariel 3in1. If anything they came out just as soft as they normally do when I use the liquid detergent and fabric softener! There's an added bonus, Ariel 3in1 will can also save money!
My morning was taken up with house jobs, cleaning chickens and sorting through the never ending pile of laundry. It is great catching up with the washing but the pile of ironing seems to be growing by the minute!
I also decided to bake the hubby a blueberry, apple and cinnamon couronne, which is not a quick bake. But it came out great! I am going to do a separate yummy post about that!
Then before I knew it school time had returned and it was time to go.
Once we actually sat down last night all I wanted to do was curl up and go to sleep. Everyone in the house, but me, has come down with colds, coughs and sore throats so I started to panic that I too was coming down with it. So I took some tablets and went to bed!
Thankfully I have woken up ok this morning. I have a little sniffle but with plenty if vitamin C I'm sure I can beat it!!!
The twins were up this morning at 6am. I can't say it was "bright and early" because it wasn't! It was more like "dark and early" it was pitch black outside. It felt like the middle of the night. The days certainly are getting shorter. Which means Halloween, Bonfire night and Christmas are on their way!
Today's plan is school run, cleaning chickens, play with the twins, clean the lounge, play with the twins, twins nap time, tackle the huge pile of ironing, do a review post, take the twins to toddlers group for the first time, then back to get Joseph from school!!!
Busy, busy, busy!!!
I have said in the past that I do not take the twins to any groups because I have felt like the circus act that everyone watches but we are going to give it another go!
Why should this group be different?
Easy, its one that's run in the village so its run by people that I know and who have seen the twins since they were small. I'm hoping the twins will enjoy playing with other children but I'm also looking forward to having some other adult conversations! Its going to be nice to sit and have a coffee and chat with other mums! I just hope the twins are ok otherwise I'm going to be running around like a headless chicken juggling toddlers!
All in all, we've got another manic day!
Sunday, 22 September 2013
I will admit that I don't do many tray bakes. If I do any its normally a flapjack. So this week was a challenge.
The one tray bake that I have wanted to have a go at for a long time is Millionaires Shortbread, purely because I love it!!!
So that was an easy choice.
I got started.
I made my dough for my shortbread then realised I hadn't actually got a tray deep enough for a tray bake! So I had to improvise. I have used a big, shallow cake tin. Hence the round Millionaires Shortbread.
I found the basic recipe on www.bbcgoodfood.com and just added a couple of my own ideas.
Millionaires' Nutty Shortbread
Saturday, 21 September 2013
I normally take some meat or fish out of the freezer but there are days when I forget! When I'm having one of these days I enjoy getting my thinking cap on, looking in the fridge and garden and coming up with a lovely satisfying meal.
Yesterday was one of these days!
I looked in the garden and found that our courgette plants had a couple of lovely fresh courgettes, so that was a start! I was presently surprised to find these as I thought that they had just about finished producing courgettes for this year. Now I had my basis I started looking for vegetables that would go with the courgettes. I went on to get a red onion, some tomatoes and some fresh thyme. I also knew that I had some mushrooms and crème fraîche in the fridge.
This is what I came up with:
Creamy Summer Vegetable Risotto
1 red onion
2 lg tomatoes
300mls crème fraîche
Leaves off a few sprigs of fresh thyme
Seasoning to taste
2 cups of rice
1: Put a pan of water to boil. When it has reached boiling point put in the rice and cook accordingly
2: Chop all of the vegetables
5: Once the rice is cooked drain it off and add to the creamy vegetables and mix together
I like to serve this with either Parmesan cheese or a mature grated cheese with garlic bread.
Friday, 20 September 2013
When we first received the Baby Bath there were no snuffles sight so I've kept it on one side.
Now that the weather has changed and Joseph has returned to school the dreaded colds, snuffles and coughs have arrived!
Poor little Isabella really is feeling it more than the other two. So what better time than now to try out Cussons Mum & Me Baby Bath to comfort Snuffles!
I ran some of the baby bath into the warm water and as I frothed it up for some bubbles the refreshing smell of menthol was released. Along with the warm water, the menthol starts its work on the snuffles. It did cause lots of runny noses but that just shows that it is doing what it says! It really did clear out her nose!
Cussons Mum & Me Baby Bath to comfort Snuffles is not only a fantastic way to comfort the little ones when they have colds. Even I have put it to the test and used it to ease my bunged up nose. However when I used it in a hot shower the menthol vapours were even stronger and worked wonders!
The Cussons Mum & Me range is not only great for the babies but is also suitable for the whole family!
You know that it is a range that you can trust.
Now for the product information! Cussons Mum & Me Baby Bath to comfort Snuffles:
* Contains menthol
* Paediatrician approved
* Kind to eyes
* Ophthalmologist approved
While any of us have the snuffles I will be keeping Cussons Mum & Me Baby Bath to comfort Snuffles close to hand!
I have quite mixed feelings about this.
On one hand it is great that he is well enough to go back to work and that me and the kids can get back into more of a routine.
On the other hand I miss him. It has been lovely having another pair of hands around the place and a second pair of eyes to watch the twins antics!
Today we are back to our normal school week routine. I have managed to whizz round getting jobs done and doing umpteen loads of washing while the weather is good.
But we have got 3 kiddies that are full of cold, which makes bad nights and grumpy twins. So I have had a trip to Tesco to stock up on vitamins, vapour rub and plug in vapouriser to help them sleep tonight. Goodness know both me and the hubby could also do with a good nights sleep.
As well as house jobs and ironing to catch up on I have got a couple of review posts to write, a couple of yummy recipes and I need to bake for Great Bloggers Bake Off.
My life if manic, but I love it!
Wednesday, 18 September 2013
Where has the time gone?
Joseph has changed me in so many ways. From the moment that I found out that I was pregnant my life changed.
I was no longer the centre of the universe, he was! I changed from a selfish girl, I only cared about what I wanted to do to someone who had a purpose in life. As soon as I found out I was pregnant my whole mindset changed.
There was somebody more important.
When I had Joseph I was living in Gran Canaria, I had no family there and was on my own. Going through it all made me stronger. If I could do this I knew I could do just about anything!
When I found out that I was pregnant I was 21 weeks gone.
People often ask "how could you not know you were pregnant?"
I honestly didn't! I was extremely underweight and I didn't have regular periods so not having one was nothing new. As for the bump, there really wasn't much of one and I thought I was just putting on weight! After a couple of friends had innocently asked me if I was pregnant I did a test. Purely just to prove them all wrong!
But it was me who was wrong!
The rest of my pregnancy flew by.
On Saturday 18th September 2004, 2 weeks early, my contractions as started. The following day I went to hospital and was kept in. My contractions were getting worse but I wasn't dilating and Joseph was getting in distress so they induced me and broke my waters.
4 hours and 55 minutes later, Joseph was born.
That was the second I knew that I would do absolutely anything for him and loved him unconditionally.
When Joseph was 6 months old we came home and settled back down in England. This was the best move that we made.
When he was nearly 3 I returned to work. I was extremely lucky that the place that I went to work had a nursery on site so we were always close to each other.
When James came into our lives he not only completed my life but he also completed Joseph's. He gave him something that, at one time, I thought that he would never have.
He became his dad.
Joseph thinks the world of him and he is his dad.
He certainly did us both proud on our wedding day when he handed over the wedding rings during the ceremony.
My boy is 9 tomorrow, that means that I have had 9 fantastic years with him. 9 years ago my life began and for that I will ever be thankful that he came into my life, he has made me who I am today.
I love you Joseph, happy birthday xxx
― Maria Shriver
Tuesday, 17 September 2013
Oh well, the bliss of full nights sleep has passed and sleepless nights have returned.
The twins have more teeth on the way and are so unsettled. When Taylor opens his mouth his poor little gums are so swollen at the back where the dreaded molars are trying to cut through. It is going to be a long haul, he is only on his first molar!
Isabella cut all four of her molars without any fuss. She is a typical girl, she just gets on with it. She has cut her teeth and we have only known about them when we have seen them. However she is currently cutting incisors on both sides and is feeling it a bit. She has turned from a cheery little girl into a little grump!
Taylor has struggled with each and every tooth. He has only just cut his seventh tooth so we've got a way to go yet but this molar seems to be taking forever. He's then got three more molars to come after that plus three other teeth to even catch up with Isabella!
I was just enjoying getting used to actually getting some sleep. I'll be used to not having as much sleep after a couple of nights but in the meantime I'll stick with my good friend, caffeine, who will help me through the day!
Monday, 16 September 2013
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Sunday, 15 September 2013
Saturday, 14 September 2013
After the horribly difficult and upsetting two weeks it is now time for me to focus on something positive. Something to be happy about and to celebrate as a family.
The twins christening!!!
I am now starting to feel excited and daunted about their special day. We put off their christening for various reasons.
I do have my beliefs and have a strong faith. However I do not practice my faith, I do not regularly attend church or regularly pray but I do believe there is a god watching over us and I do believe that there is a place for us when we leave this world. I get comfort from my beliefs. However hubby hasn't been too sure about it. Another influencing factor was the village school that the twins will go to. It has very strong links with the village church and they do regular community services. Also Joseph was christened when he was a baby and both me and hubby are christened so I didn't want the twins to not be.
After quite a bit of persuasion hubby agreed for us to arrange a christening and made me a very happy mummy and wife.
Before the summer holidays I arranged a date, 13th October. We have chose who will be the twins God parents and that's about as far as we have got! At the time it felt like we had a long time to arrange everything. Then all of our priorities changed. Grandads health deteriorated and I completely forgot about the christening.
Now that we have laid my grandad to rest it is nice to have something positive to focus on.
Now I can start to plan!
We are holding the christening on a tight budget. We cannot afford to take everyone out for a fancy meal afterwards so we are going to try and cater for it ourselves to keep the cost down. I have looked at invitations when I have been out but, surprisingly not, I have not seen any twin christening invitations. To buy these, as all twin items, they are more expensive. So to save a bit more money I am going to design an invitation so it will be exactly what we want. This is the first job that I need to get cracking on with. The christening is in 4 weeks!
My jobs after the invitations have been sent will be to find outfits for all 3 children, decided what food to serve, decided on what cake to have and what puddings to serve!!!
Luckily I won't have to do it all my own, Im sure that hubby, my mum and mother in law will be there to help as much as they can.
I do know that we have got a lot to do over the following 4 weeks but we will make it a lovely day for our families.
Thursday, 12 September 2013
So here goes........
Two weeks ago you left us.
You left us all heart broken and left a huge empty space in our lives.
You had fought the evil disease cancer for so long. I even think that you had hidden the level of your suffering until we all knew the true extent of it. Once we all knew, you gave in to it, too tired and exhausted to fight any more.
We were just starting to try and get our heads around the thought that we only had months left with you. Little did we know we would only have 9 days.
We had so much planned for the next few months. We had Joseph's 9th birthday to celebrate, we had the twins christening to celebrate, we had dads 60th birthday to celebrate and most of all we had Christmas to celebrate together as a whole family. We were going to make this Christmas such a special one.
We will never celebrate all of these together as a whole family.
That has all been stolen from us.
You have been stolen from us.
I still cannot truly believe that you have gone.
When nanna rings, the telephone still flashes up as "Nanna and Grandad", when we go round I still expect to hear you call out "Hello!", I still expect to wake up and it has all been a horrible nightmare.
But, I know that this is not true.
You have gone.
I was by your side when you took your last breath, I told you to sleep tight. I am pleased that your suffering is over but that does not make me miss you any less. You have always been there and I will always miss you.
Today I saw you for the last time. You looked at peace, your pain had gone.
Tomorrow we will lay you to rest.
I am not going to say goodbye. I am just going to say good night.
Goodbye seems so final. I like to believe that you have gone to another place. You are watching over us.
Tomorrow is going to be such a hard day. We will all make you proud and will be there by nanna's side and give her all the support that we can.
Grandad, may you rest in peace. Everyone has said that you were always such a gentleman, they were right. You were a very special man who will never be forgotten.
The twins really are starting to see how far they can get, particularly little Isabella.
Isabella is such a bright little girl who can melt your heart one minute then drive you crackers the next!
We still have the barricade in front of the television table to stop the twins getting the tv. This did work well to start with until they discovered climbing.
This barricade has now become a climbing frame. I loose count how many time during the day we say
"Isabella, get down!"
"Taylor, get down!"
It feels like it is all we say!
The difference between the twins is that Taylor will only need to be told a couple of times. He soon gets fed up and moves on to some of his toys. Whereas Isabella sees it as a way to push the boundaries.
We will tell her to get down and she will look at us, smile and carry on climbing.
I really do not remember having this problem with Joseph. But this may be the difference between girls and boys, it may be because there was only one Joseph, or it may just be simply down to differences in personalities. Joseph had a time out step as a consequence and I found that this worked well. However, I am sure that he was older than 19 months! If we sat either of the twins on the bottom step they would be off! But we know that we need to put some form of consequence in place, otherwise they will never learn.
I read online today some parents opinions to the use of time out. Some, like me, found it worked, others were completely against it. Every parent is different and has different parenting techniques. What is important is that you do what works for you.
Now we are trying to put in place some consequences for the twins. We have been telling them to get down, if they don't get down we lift them down, if they go back and do it again we put them in their chairs. However they have found that they can actually crawl and walk with the chairs still strapped to their bums! To stop this we have been clipping the chairs to the settee legs. This worked for a bit but now they will sit and watch television it is no deterrent anymore.
So what now?
I think that we need to continue with the chairs as we can put the harness on as I do not feel that they are old enough to understand the concept of time out just yet. They would not sit and would not understand that they have to stay there. I am hoping that we will have more success if we move the chairs away from the main area where the television is and where their toys are.
In theory, this should be more of a deterrent. Whether it will work is yet to be seen! I know that it is up to us as parents to be consistent. I also know that being a good parent means teaching your children right from wrong.
One thing I do know is that I cannot stay annoyed with them for long. All they need to do is give me a little smile and my heart melts!
Wednesday, 11 September 2013
This is my first post for Wednesday Words. I have often thought about taking part but after reading http://www.crazywithtwins.com/2013/09/11/wednesday-words-insanity-vs-the-saatchi-bill/ it hit a nerve close to home and got me thinking.
As many will know my grandad recently passed away after battling cancer. On Friday I am going to have to face his funeral. Just thinking about Friday makes me feel physically sick with nerves. I really do not want to say goodbye and I am not going to say goodbye.
I will be saying good night!
The quote that I found below made me think.
I will never forget, yes my grandad is not with us in person, but he is still with us in spirit.
He will always live on in our hearts, thoughts and memories.
― J.M. Barrie, Peter Pan
Tuesday, 10 September 2013
Monday, 9 September 2013
We were busying around as we usually do on a Sunday. I usually bake while hubby gets some gardening done and yesterday started off just like that.
Hubby's job yesterday was to trim the hedge in the garden. To reach the top of the hedge he was using my Dad's step ladders.
All of a sudden I could hear Joseph scream and cry so I rushed to the door expecting to see Joseph with a bump or a graze.
But no. It was hubby!
He had his t-shirt held up to his eye and I could see that it was covered in blood! He rushed past me and went straight up to the bathroom. I ran after him asking him what he had done.
I followed him into the bathroom as he was starting to wash his eye and there was blood everywhere. When he finally let me have a look I saw that he had a huge, deep gash under his eye. After quizzing him what had happened, I discovered that the platform had given way and he fell through. Joseph was upset because he had seen him fall and had seen him bleeding. Bless him, he was so upset and worried.
Part of me breathed a sigh of relief as I had immediately thought the worse, I thought that he had got something actually his eye. I could see that it was deep so I told him that we would should take a ride to A&E as he'd need a stitch in it. As soon as I had said that hubby blew his nose to get rid of some blood and as he did his eye blew up like a balloon!
What caused that!
Normally I am not good with blood and my tummy turns circles. Yesterday I just went into auto pilot. Got the kids sorted to go to my Mums, calmed Joseph down and got ready to go.
We arrived at A&E, got booked in and the wait began.
In total we were there for nearly 6 hours!
Checked by the triage nurse, sent to wait.
Checked by the doctor, sent to wait.
Went for an x-ray, sent back to wait.
After what seemed like an eternity of waiting the doctor came to see us and we were told that hubby had fractured his cheek bone and had an open fracture. The swelling that occurred after he had blown his nose was in fact blood which had caused a haematoma under his eye. This haematoma had also cause blood to accumulate on his eye ball, which as hubby says "looks freaky!". We now had to wait to see if the specialist in another hospital was happy for him to come home with antibiotics and pain killers or if he wanted him to be transferred to the other hospital which is a good 45 minutes away. So back to waiting it was!
Thankfully the reply that we got was what we were praying for. Hubby could come home with medication.
When we got home the children were so tired as it was way past their bedtime but they were doing so well. We got them both to bed and then gave Joseph plenty of love and reassured him that his Dad was going to be ok.
We need to go back for a check up on Tuesday which should hopefully be a straight forward appointment.
This week I am not only Mum and housewife, but I am also adding nurse to my repertoire!
Hubby has woken up this morning with more swelling around his face as the bruising is coming out. He also has various bruises down his side. He is also trying to cope seeing with the one eye as he is unable to see properly due to the swelling and haematoma. As he is struggling to chew food I have made a yummy smelling "make you feel better" soup.
This is going to be a busy week so hopefully after all of my hard work I will be rewarded with a much deserved lie in at the weekend!